New Year Blues & Yellows

I hate this holiday! The new year always reminds me of what goal I wasn't able to accomplish. Moreover, it reminds me that I could have spent my time more wisely, and should have been putting my all into said goal instead of unimportant things x,y,z.
This year I neglected to put my all into unimportant things l, m, n...x,y,z. I'm disappointed in myself because it makes me so much further from becoming the woman I want to become [a heroine of some sort].
Despite my sour attitude, I told myself that I would stop making all of these ridiculous resolutions and try to focus on one thing: thinking positively. Either I'm really a bum or I just down myself too much. I'm no bum..so I'll go with the latter. I'm pretty sure this year will be a great year. There are just too many good things to look forward to. Not to mention, the second half of 2008 was me - no hype, no gloss, no pretense. I was my true flirty, bitchy, moody, silly, jokey, funny, lovey-dovey self---and it felt great to be that and not worry about anyone's opinion.

I think about every unexpected thing that happened in '08 and it really makes me smile. You never know what God has in store for you. I'm positive that he has great things in store for me!